Monthly Archives: July 2014

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Maybe I’m overreacting, maybe I’m not, but when I woke up this morning to news that a Malaysian Airlines plane got shot down over Ukraine, I lost it. I wasn’t that…emotionally involved when the first plane disappeared earlier this year but I guess after following the Israel-Gaza happenings so closely the past few days, reading up killings, looking at pictures of dead children, my heart was slowly disintegrating. Now this. There’s only so much my tiny heart can take.

I’m terrified for the people of Gaza who have to live in fear every single day, I want to go to tell the Israelis to grow the fuck up and stop bombing innocent people. They say they want to stop the Hamas but seriously, I don’t think bombing them is the way to go. Even rapists or murderers don’t get killed when they’re caught!

Now this fucking plane that got shot down?! Are you fucking serious, world?! Who the fuck are you to go around fucking bombing innocent people and shooting fucking planes down?! WHO THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU?! Who gave you the fucking right to injure innocent people?!

“Oh, we just want to stop the Hamas but we accidentally killed innocent civilians in the process because we don’t know where to bomb exactly so we’re just throwing bombs everywhere.”

“Oops, was that a commercial plane we just hit with our missile? Oh, well, my bad.”

Fuck. I don’t know why I feel so strongly, feeling so saddened by all these. Maybe it’s because I live on this planet, I live among people who are stupid and have no soul, there are people here who have no conscience, who live for themselves with no regards for others. Why do some people think that they’re more superior than others, that there might be a possibility that they could get their way if they rebel and don’t back down?

It’s frustrating when groups of people don’t realize the sort of harm they’re doing to innocent bystanders when they go to war with each other. It’s fucking vile and disgusting and there is no reason why innocent people have to sacrifice their lives for the stupidity and cruelty of others.

12

Remember that one post where I was blabbering on and on about how I hated not having to do anything at work? Well, I let my mouth run off and guess what? I’ve been swamped with work the past few weeks ever since one of the Directors ran off with with a $50k cheque and my boss sent him packing (along with his secretary) so I’ve just been picking up the slack around here. It was quite rough at the start but it’s getting a tad better.

It’s been a good few months since I’ve had to rush to do anything so when my boss threw actual work at me (which needed to be done in 2 hours!) last Friday, I nearly had a meltdown cause I didn’t know how to get the things done and I was panicking (and I did cry. Just a bit though) but I got it all done in the end. I went home after that and had a nice long sleep that spanned for probably a good 16 hours.

It’s the fasting month and just to show you how unimpressed I am about this whole ‘not eating’ thing, I got my period the night before I was supposed to fast. Even though I can eat to my heart’s content, I haven’t been doing that cause I can’t bring myself to tell the people in the office that “no, I can’t fast cause I’m on my period” so I’ve been fasting in the office and they’ve had to put up with the noises that my tummy makes (how embarrassing).

Oh, yeah, IT’S JULY! 🙂 July means that I’ll be able to see Tom really soon! Like in 2-3 weeks soon! I’m so ready to bask in the cold, British air and eat fish and chips in the car and feed ducks in the parks and see Tom’s nieces and nephew and play with the cat and look at cows and sheep on the hills and bring the dingy out to sea ermahgerd I’m so excited to finally see Tom after 6 months!

I’ve also just received my pay so I’m gonna go book my flight now (I’M SO FLIPPING EXCITED!)!